LIVING IN THE MOMENT

Sometimes tough situations come into our lives and no matter how we think we're set to brace ourselves from the hurt, it just doesn't happen. Why in the world would anyone who says that they love you act as though you were a noose around their neck? Why would they spell out all of their anger and hostile thoughts on you?
I seem to be living this type of life right now and no matter how I try to fix it, it just doesn't get better. So what am I missing here? How can I figure out how to survive this angry relationship when all I did was show up to participate in it?
There are no clear answers and no exact lines in the sand for me. All I have is my prayer and hope that when the storm comes I can weather the turbulence. It is a day by day event for me and learning to live in the moment counts for everything.
I realize that trying to live in the moment is so much harder than trying to work out the solution, or even trying to fix what may be at the chord of what's wrong with this relationship. Sometimes we don't get to fix everything that's wrong in our lives. For me I only have the ability to  see the moment and pick how to live the moment. I have to trust that somewhere within all the hell that's coming that God hears my prayers.
Writing this today isn't very easy for me. It's the admission to myself and the world at large that my life more often than not sucks. I have an unseen enemy that wages war against me even though the profession of love is mention somewhere along the way.
Most often I chose to believe in that love even though I know that a battle is coming and I am powerless to change it. So here I sit writing, pouring out my grief hoping that my words can become a form of therapy.
In the end I've learn to live in the moment, wait out the anger and praying for calmness that will ease the storm inside of him.I believe in love in all forms. I believe that each human needs another for love, comfort and support. Until the day that I am proved wrong, I will continue living in the moment, hoping for the best and praying loudly that God will continue to give me enough strength to see this to the ends of my days.
Be strong, and stay the course and know that God has got your back everyday you're living the moment. Somehow, some way it will work itself out.
Go with peace :)