As is often the case with myself I find that on an unexpectant moment I am caught off guard. My behavior is less the admirable and a sense of shame comes over me. Such was the case this past Sunday when I found myself seething with anger in church no less.
Once again I had let my foolish pride and anger get the best of me as I felt the need to display how upset I was at another member of my church. There is nothing quiet like having the full force of my unhappiness laid at your feet as I steamed inwardly with displeasure.
A funny thing happened on my way to listening to the sermon, I began to realize what an ass I had been that morning. There was no doubt that given another second to think about my reaction I could have chosen a better and surely more pleasant way of handling the situation.
It was obvious that I owed my friend and fellow church family member a huge apology. Knowing myself as well as I do, often I assume that those that are closes to me should know the limits of what can and can not be exchanged with me. As the old saying goes, to assume makes an ass of you and me both. However the only ass in this fight was me!!
Needless to say after the sermon had ended I made my way to my friend, made the apology that I so owed her, leaving the church satisfied that I had corrected the wrong I caused. In the wake of this stupid and ridiculous behavior I have found a very valuable lesson, it is simply the art of humility.
Humility, or being humble is not something we creatures of mankind do very easily. We are prone to arrogance by our very nature and certainly we ignore the common sense of loving nurture. What a shameful way for me to behave, especially in the house of God.
But as with most things of my choosing there is always a valuable lesson that is learn. Here it is simply that I have no greater value than the next child of God and therefore let me be reminded that I should treat others the way that I too would like to be treated, in kindness.
Humility, it can say so much about who we choose to be. As for me, well it's a learning curve for sure, but then that's not a surprise is it?
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