SORROW

 Sorrow, it seeps into our lives at a moments notice. We are always unprepared for what is attached to that sorrow. It pours over our emotions running like a river filling our hearts to the brim. We lay still in somber quietness trying to calm the fears and anxiety that often accompanies the dark feeling.
Our minds are free falling into an abyss that seems to have no ending. Sorrow just seems to wrap itself around our entire being holding onto us with a firm hand of steel. It  can grip your heart and squeeze the very breath out of you. Sorrow at times just seems to snatch your very sense of balance.
We never know when sorrow will manifest. It comes in a wide variety of shapes and forms. Just showing up like a thief in the night, slithering  all around our being and taking over without notice. We try to fight the oppressing feeling, but too often the power that it brings is over whelming.
Sometimes you just have to let go, give in to the sorrow. Emotionally even though we may not recognize this, sorrow has it's place in our lives.
We are just human, flesh and blood, living and dying at a moments notice. When nature, as God has created it works we are simply at it's mercy.
Today I feel that sorrow in the worse of ways. Somehow without notification life has come to claim another loved one. It won't come swiftly, no not at all and it shan't be welcomed. No, life as it works out is a simple rhythm of life and death, something that we all shall succumb to. It is a process none the less, but along with this even flow of checks and balances our sorrow intertwines us like a intricate spider web being spun for all to see. It catches what it needs to sustain the balance of life.
Sorrow is never easy, it bogs down our emotional state of being like the heaviest of weights. For me my only resolve for this feeling that invades my personal space is prayer. Not one to preach, I'm simply stating a view point, that when my sorrow is so heavy that I haven't enough tears to flush it from my soul then prayer is where I go.
Yes, sorrow is as much a part of who we are, but not one of us suffers alone. I pray that my sorrow will soon be replaced with the greatest amount of hope. That joy and happiness will be like the brightest sun shine on all of my days for that beloved that will be missed. Whenever I look to the heavens I only view the that place where all of our souls shall rest with rainbows aplenty.
Our sorrows are with us daily, but when the journey ends what lies ahead washes away that which has burden every soul and all will be renewed, beautiful and eternally good.

For Barbara, who helped me to understand all dreams are possible. Thank you. Sweet dreams and rainbow are yours, life renewed and beautiful, eternally.